23 weeks, Day 3
Milestones
6 weeks = Discovered I am pregnant
7 weeks = Heard baby's heart beat for the first time
12 weeks = Discovered baby had a potential problem
20 weeks = Discovered relief. Was told baby is absolutely fine and doing well!
21 weeks = Felt baby kick for the first time
Its been almost 6 months of complete madness. Everything from discovering that I am pregnant especially after a crazy Paris trip where I did everything that I shouldn't be doing in a pregnancy to taking a swine flu injection in my 4th week, to high NTs, hormones, scans scans and more scans, amniocentesis, karyotyping for all, genetic counseling, crazy work scenarios, clothes not fitting, pregnancy classes, random accidents, brother's wedding preparations to moving HOME!
It's been a crazy 6 months.
Till month 5, I did not even know if I was finally going to be a parent or not, but whether I accepted it or not, I knew was a mother already. Praying for my baby's well-being everyday, taking care of myself because it meant taking care of baby including doing silly things I would never have done otherwise only because 'it maybe good for baby'. :)
Its been 6 months of independent decisions: everything from doctor shopping to my decision to continue working.
Its been 6 months of independent thought: most people around me have no clue what I am going through. Most people automatically alienate the company that they cannot relate to anymore. Its happening to me and I do not even want to fight it. I know that some day, they will be where I am, and thankfully, they will have one person who understands them.
Its been 6 months of patience and faith: Every single time I was explained my options when things weren't going right, I truly believed they were just telling the worst case scenario just because they are doctors and that preparing me for the worst was the right thing for them to do.
I will be lying if I say I wasn't scared. I was more scared than I have ever been in my life...because this time, it wasn't only about me. But the only thing that helped me survive is true patience and faith that the final outcome will be what I truly want. All I told myself is that: "Nothing good in life comes easily, have patience. Your faith will never let you down, have patience. " I now know this works for everything.
I am not sure what kind of mother I will be, or what kind of mother I want to be. I don't know whether I will be great or not, I just know that I want to do everything I can in my means to do things right, and have faith and patience that everything will be perfect.
6 months down and 3 more to go, some work to complete, one house to move and Neerav's wedding..and baby will be here. 2011 is going to be an eventful year...I cannot wait.
Hopefully, I will continue writing. There's a lot to do, but not really, till baby arrives. After that, maybe all I will be doing is posting baby pictures.
I've heard they speak a thousand words.
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